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[I don't think you are. Not at all. You, who has been by my side through the worst time of my life and stayed with me, you're wonderful.

The words are smothered in kisses, and though Light feels half-inclined to stop in order to say those things, another louder part of him wants to leave these things unsaid because that's part of what makes their relationship so good. Even without saying that, Teru knows that's how he feels. Without thinking, Light wraps his arm around his boyfriend's shoulder to hold him closer as they kiss.

He tastes like clean mint, and though they've been using the same ordinary toothpaste for months now, even that bit of meaningless synergy between them is oddly satisfying. Though they've both talked about feeling lucky today and have both chastised each other for using such an empty word, it doesn't stop feeling true on some level.

After all, how many people can say they have someone who will be there for them? Someone to hold when they're feeling down? And someone who earnestly makes you want to be a better person for their sake? Light winds his fingers through Teru's hair, not wanting to stop or let go.

Eventually however... he has to and he does so somewhat shamefacedly and with his heart beating a little too loudly when he feels himself beginning to grow aroused.]

...ah.

Edited 2017-06-28 01:26 (UTC)

[ The feeling of Light hardening against him is completely familiar by now. Teru remembers that the first times he felt it unplanned, it was awkward and embarrassing. Both of them had tried to play it cool at that point, but it was clear neither of them really knew how to even approach such familiarity. It had been too close then, involuntary physical reaction had been more than they could really trust each other with.

These days, Teru experiences arousal on either of their parts as completely ordinary. It's nice to feel it, it's nice to know that's the impact they have on one another.

As Light breaks away, Teru has his body tightly intertwined with his boyfriend's, leg wrapped around leg, hands holding on to the back of Light's pyjamas. That too is no longer embarrassing. He doesn't feel any need to move away. ]

... I'm not tired yet.

[ He hadn't been thinking about going further before, but feeling so close now the idea isn't unappealing to round off the day. ]

[There is, technically speaking, no reason to feel embarrassed at all, but in this particular case, Light reserves that for himself if only because this is genuinely not where he planned for things to end up this evening. It takes him a second to relax in Teru's arms and yet another one to look him in the eye. When he does, however, he's more sheepish than uncomfortable.]

Neither, truth be told.

[Repositioning his hand to rest between Teru's shoulder blades, he breathes out.]

Not that this was how I planned on burning some energy...[A beat.] What do you want to do?

[ The question is always a difficult one because it's so hard to formulate a concrete answer to. In the end, what Teru wants to do is what Light enjoys the most. ]

Let me please you if I already caused this.

[ There is no question that this will also arouse himself quite a lot, but first priorities are first priorities. ]

[A shiver shoots down Light's spine. Phrases like this aren't unusual to hear from Teru by now, but in light of everything they touched on today - the awkwardness of their first time together, whether or not they'd even be close today if things were slightly different - it seems almost unbelievable that they could be intertwined and talking openly about intimate acts.

Of course, all those changes happened gradually in small incremental steps that were imperceptible in a macroscopic sense, but taking a moment for reflection before Light presses his lips on Teru's neck, he does have to admit to himself that he never thought he'd see the day that he could be so comfortable wanting someone like this.]

Mm... I won't say no to that.

[Murmuring the words against Teru's skin, he moves his hand down to Teru's hip slowly, suggestively.]

But if you're going to do that, I want it to be good for you too.

[ Hearing Light's voice while simultaneously feeling his warm breath tickle against his skin is wonderfully intimate and Teru breathes a contented sigh. ]

... you say that is if it wasn't going to be good for me anyway.

[ There is nothing that is nicer than hearing Light's pleasure in the end. Teru likes being touched, but ever since Light had confessed his identity, his greatest pleasure had always been pleasing his partner. ]

But we could always go further if you want it more mutual.

[Still spoken softly into warm skin:]

I always want things to be mutual, Teru.

[Drawing back a pinch, he looks at Teru directly with a mischievous glint in his eyes that's rare to see. Carefully he brushes his fingers over the front of his boyfriend's pajama pants and swoops lower between his legs.]

You do have a way of making me want to lie back and appreciate you unfiltered though.

[Moving his hand back up to Teru's hip, he grins into a soft kiss on the lips.]

Edited 2017-06-28 21:07 (UTC)

Our feelings are always mutual, I was talking about mirrored actions.... ah...

[ But the longer Light keeps teasing like this, the more he certainly wants some mutuality in actions too... It's fairly easy to tell by the way he maneuvers their hips a little closer. ]

Let's go all the way then... you can gladly lay back and enjoy a good finish to the day.

Ah...

[Their lower bodies brush, and Light muses while tracing Teru's jaw.[

And here I was thinking that maybe it's you who should lie back considering all the effort you put into today already.

[ That's... an unexpected offer on more than one level and Teru blinks. ]

I did nothing extraordinary, Light.

[ Light's back-to-college celebration is in the end fundamentally about Light's achievements at recovery. ]

It's your celebration so you can decide though...

[ Another hip thrust accentuates this. ]

[The motion of Teru's hip makes him draw in a sharp breath at the contact. Light closes his for a moment,and breathes out slowly.]

Arguably, neither did I.

[The comment is stated in a purely matter of fact tone, no traces of self pity or self deprecation to be heard. Lots of people take going to school for granted in the end. To most it wouldn't be considered a big accomlishment, even if the occasion may have emotional significance. Light nudges Teru onto his back and carefully pins his shoulders back against the mattress.]

But that doesn't mean we can't appreciate things about each other. You were looking forward to today just as much as i was, and you helped me get there.

[Dipping down, Light presses a kiss to his boyfriend's jaw and begins unbuttoning his shirt.]

So let me lavish for a little bit. We can always switch and go by your suggestion in the middle.

[ It is by no means unprecedented for Light to take an active role in bed, yet it's gained an incredible amount of excitement since Teru knows just how much he really worships his boyfriend. And today... after sharing power for the first time... His heart is increasing its rate almost shamefully. ]

.... y-yes, sounds good.

[ He reaches his hands up to Light's hips, gently slipping his fingers a little bit below Light's waistband to caress the skin there. Otherwise, he remains passive, waiting, for once. ]

[His boyfriend's hands feel warm on his bare skin, but another shiver runs down his spine. The only indication that the touch has any effect on him is a tiny pause between undoing the next button and sitting up to straddle his boyfriend's hips so he can continue moving downwards. It's deeply distracting, however, being able to feel Teru's arousal brushing his inner thigh through their clothes. Light murmurs, again, matter of factly as he picks open buttons quickly with unclumsy motions.]

It's kind of amusing to think about it now, but did you know the fact that you're usually wearing button down shirts was initimdating in this context?

[Shirt now fully opened, Light brushes his boyfriend's exposed chest from collarbone to waistband in a smooth line. Half smile in place, he grinds their hips together and gently nips at Teru's neck.]

I could probably do that in my sleep by now.

M...mh....

[ Teru closes his eyes as Light works his way down the buttons, enjoying having nothing but the mere ghostly feeling of fingers working their way down to indicate Light undressing him. ]

I remember being nervous every time... I just enjoy it now.

[ Those moments of will we won't we uncertainty, the time of undressing... He used to have so many mixed feelings on them, but now he feels more relaxed than he does during most parts of his day.

His hips move upwards against Light's as he wraps his arms tightly around his boyfriends upper body. He'll have to let go soon enough... but for now... ]

[There's a part of Light that wants to point that being held like this and moving hips together isn't "lying back" but being closer to Teru's face allows him to kiss his boyfriend and in the end, that's compelling enough to be distracting.]

That's good.

[He kisses chastely and speaks in whisper soft tones.]

You're the only person I'd want to be this close to.

[And there's another kiss, deeper this time as he moves his hand to rest over Teru's heart. To nobody's surprise, it's beating fast, but all the same it's satisfying to know that all of Teru's involuntary responses, the quicker heart rate, the erection brushing his leg, all of them are his right now. Light can't resist a slight tease, however.]

You're sure you aren't nervous?

... there are more things that make your heart race than that.

[ Teru pauses, looking a little flustered despite his confident reply. Somehow he still feels the need to specify this further. ]

Anticipation, for one.

[ Nervousness includes a fear that things may turn out badly, but Teru has left that fear long in the past. They've made all the mistakes they could make, now they are too united to go wrong in this. ]

[Light laughs a little at that. Although Teru hasn't said anything objectively amusing or insightful, being this way with teru has a way of lifting LIght up to the clouds.]

Right.

[Moving further back so that it's just the tips of their noses touching, he raises an eyebrow.]

And that's why you have me in a death grip when you're supposed to be lying back, huh.

[A comment accentuated with a light brush of Teru's shoulder and an expression that can only be interpeted as Not that I mind at all.]

... ah. I am on my back, at least... and I like holding you.

[ He mumbles, petulant in an unusually child-like way. Regardless, he slowly loosens his grip, brushing his hands carefully over every part of Light's back before finally settling them back on his hips.

Lying back is entirely against routine. He's supposed to be worshiping, not getting spoiled.... but regardless of these instinctive objections, the prospect manages to be thrilling. ]

[Leaving a lingering kiss on his boyfriend's lips, Light closes his eyes for the duration that Teru's hands move down his body. ]

I like being held by you.

[It's a quiet admission as Light sits up slowly and smoothes the opened edges of Teru's shirt down his shoulders. He breathes out and takes just a second to look at his boyfriend lying this way, half undressed. Don't look at me too much is an old sentiment that belongs to a time that no longer applies to their present, but in remembering it, Light only smiles fondly and leaves a trail of soft kisses down Teru's chest. He pauses, just below Teru's navel.]

Good that things work out nicely that way.

Edited 2017-06-30 03:39 (UTC)

[ The kisses half tickling, half enticing and Teru squirms just a little, but not enough for it to count as any kind of resistance. When Light stops, he lays perfectly still again, breathing deeply. ]

We complement each other, after all.

[ His hands, forced to leave Light's hips in the downward movement, now settle on the mattress but not before gently brushing through Light's hair. ]

[A little amused by the squirming, Light pulls the waistband of Teru's pants down slightly and brushes over his bare hip with his tongue.]

Are you the day to my night, then?

[Light teases as he scoots back further to lie flat on his stomach between his boyfriend's legs. Draping one arm over Teru's thigh, Light runs his fingers up and down, never quite touching more sensitive spots.]

[ It's almost strange to let Light lay between his legs like this, even if he himself has been in this position countless times for his boyfriend. Now something about Light being so almost out of reach of his eager hands is off-feeling.

Teru doesn't get too much of a chance to dwell on it though, with one teasing action following the other. ]

Hh...

[ Light's technique is different than his own would be, much more hesitant, slower and softer. Teru likes having to be patient, it feels only fitting for them. ]

... even with your last name, I have a hard time seeing you as night.

Mm..

[Light contemplates this for a moment, mostly out of jest, and props himself up on his elbows to look at his boyfriend's face.]

You're too generous about giving awful jokes serious responses, you know?

[He shakes his head, though his lips are curved upwards in a tiny sheepish smile..]

I always thought this was kind of endearing about you. Even back then.

[And with that, he closes his hand over the tip of his boyfriend's arousal and brushes over it with his thumb.]

Mhm....

[ The direct touch has Teru closing his eyes and exhaling slowly to steady his breath for a reply. ]

How could I not take you seriously when you're my God...?

[ The answer is half joke in itself. Of course Teru has figured out a while down the line that being completely serious about Light's jest has a way of furthering the humorous effect for his boyfriend while not compromising his own personality. He's always found that pleasant. Unlike others, he can make Light laugh by being himself - laugh pleasantly, not maliciously. ]

[The idle stroking comes to a momentary halt as Light struggles to regroup from the comment. He refuses to call this being flustered because that's certainly not what it is - of course not - but the mixture of endearment and serious sincerity at this kind of timing when his face is mere centimeters away from his boyfriend's cock...

It's not the first time these disparate elements have come together like this to create this awful storm of adrenaline and sexual tension, and yet it somehow feels no differently than the first time. Perhaps because Light has never formulated a proper answer to this kind of comment.... perhaps because his boyfriend's concurrent "worship" had made it such that the only response Light could give had been inarticulate moans.

But there's no question about it; Light likes hearing appellations like 'god' from someone who truly matters, and for better or for worse, his face is shielded from Teru's vantage point and the pinch of color that has risen to his cheeks can go without scrutiny or comment.

It's our private bond. It's no wonder, he's never told Teru to stop.]

...ah, is that how it is?

[This isn't much more articulate either, damn it. Light swallows and moves his hand slowly up and down the length of Teru's arousal. Then he removes his hand entirely. The reason for that becomes clear as Light, head still ducked somewhat, puts his hands on Teru's hips and pulls at his boyfriend's pants more insistently to further undress him. The instruction to lift up to facilitate this goes unspoken.]

You've thought of me as God for a long while then. In retrospect I'm even more flattered.

[A joke.. maybe.]

Edited 2017-07-01 03:47 (UTC)

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