inordertobelieve

Ah...

[Their lower bodies brush, and Light muses while tracing Teru's jaw.[

And here I was thinking that maybe it's you who should lie back considering all the effort you put into today already.

[ That's... an unexpected offer on more than one level and Teru blinks. ]

I did nothing extraordinary, Light.

[ Light's back-to-college celebration is in the end fundamentally about Light's achievements at recovery. ]

It's your celebration so you can decide though...

[ Another hip thrust accentuates this. ]

[The motion of Teru's hip makes him draw in a sharp breath at the contact. Light closes his for a moment,and breathes out slowly.]

Arguably, neither did I.

[The comment is stated in a purely matter of fact tone, no traces of self pity or self deprecation to be heard. Lots of people take going to school for granted in the end. To most it wouldn't be considered a big accomlishment, even if the occasion may have emotional significance. Light nudges Teru onto his back and carefully pins his shoulders back against the mattress.]

But that doesn't mean we can't appreciate things about each other. You were looking forward to today just as much as i was, and you helped me get there.

[Dipping down, Light presses a kiss to his boyfriend's jaw and begins unbuttoning his shirt.]

So let me lavish for a little bit. We can always switch and go by your suggestion in the middle.

[ It is by no means unprecedented for Light to take an active role in bed, yet it's gained an incredible amount of excitement since Teru knows just how much he really worships his boyfriend. And today... after sharing power for the first time... His heart is increasing its rate almost shamefully. ]

.... y-yes, sounds good.

[ He reaches his hands up to Light's hips, gently slipping his fingers a little bit below Light's waistband to caress the skin there. Otherwise, he remains passive, waiting, for once. ]

[His boyfriend's hands feel warm on his bare skin, but another shiver runs down his spine. The only indication that the touch has any effect on him is a tiny pause between undoing the next button and sitting up to straddle his boyfriend's hips so he can continue moving downwards. It's deeply distracting, however, being able to feel Teru's arousal brushing his inner thigh through their clothes. Light murmurs, again, matter of factly as he picks open buttons quickly with unclumsy motions.]

It's kind of amusing to think about it now, but did you know the fact that you're usually wearing button down shirts was initimdating in this context?

[Shirt now fully opened, Light brushes his boyfriend's exposed chest from collarbone to waistband in a smooth line. Half smile in place, he grinds their hips together and gently nips at Teru's neck.]

I could probably do that in my sleep by now.

M...mh....

[ Teru closes his eyes as Light works his way down the buttons, enjoying having nothing but the mere ghostly feeling of fingers working their way down to indicate Light undressing him. ]

I remember being nervous every time... I just enjoy it now.

[ Those moments of will we won't we uncertainty, the time of undressing... He used to have so many mixed feelings on them, but now he feels more relaxed than he does during most parts of his day.

His hips move upwards against Light's as he wraps his arms tightly around his boyfriends upper body. He'll have to let go soon enough... but for now... ]

[There's a part of Light that wants to point that being held like this and moving hips together isn't "lying back" but being closer to Teru's face allows him to kiss his boyfriend and in the end, that's compelling enough to be distracting.]

That's good.

[He kisses chastely and speaks in whisper soft tones.]

You're the only person I'd want to be this close to.

[And there's another kiss, deeper this time as he moves his hand to rest over Teru's heart. To nobody's surprise, it's beating fast, but all the same it's satisfying to know that all of Teru's involuntary responses, the quicker heart rate, the erection brushing his leg, all of them are his right now. Light can't resist a slight tease, however.]

You're sure you aren't nervous?

... there are more things that make your heart race than that.

[ Teru pauses, looking a little flustered despite his confident reply. Somehow he still feels the need to specify this further. ]

Anticipation, for one.

[ Nervousness includes a fear that things may turn out badly, but Teru has left that fear long in the past. They've made all the mistakes they could make, now they are too united to go wrong in this. ]

[Light laughs a little at that. Although Teru hasn't said anything objectively amusing or insightful, being this way with teru has a way of lifting LIght up to the clouds.]

Right.

[Moving further back so that it's just the tips of their noses touching, he raises an eyebrow.]

And that's why you have me in a death grip when you're supposed to be lying back, huh.

[A comment accentuated with a light brush of Teru's shoulder and an expression that can only be interpeted as Not that I mind at all.]

... ah. I am on my back, at least... and I like holding you.

[ He mumbles, petulant in an unusually child-like way. Regardless, he slowly loosens his grip, brushing his hands carefully over every part of Light's back before finally settling them back on his hips.

Lying back is entirely against routine. He's supposed to be worshiping, not getting spoiled.... but regardless of these instinctive objections, the prospect manages to be thrilling. ]

[Leaving a lingering kiss on his boyfriend's lips, Light closes his eyes for the duration that Teru's hands move down his body. ]

I like being held by you.

[It's a quiet admission as Light sits up slowly and smoothes the opened edges of Teru's shirt down his shoulders. He breathes out and takes just a second to look at his boyfriend lying this way, half undressed. Don't look at me too much is an old sentiment that belongs to a time that no longer applies to their present, but in remembering it, Light only smiles fondly and leaves a trail of soft kisses down Teru's chest. He pauses, just below Teru's navel.]

Good that things work out nicely that way.

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[ The kisses half tickling, half enticing and Teru squirms just a little, but not enough for it to count as any kind of resistance. When Light stops, he lays perfectly still again, breathing deeply. ]

We complement each other, after all.

[ His hands, forced to leave Light's hips in the downward movement, now settle on the mattress but not before gently brushing through Light's hair. ]

[A little amused by the squirming, Light pulls the waistband of Teru's pants down slightly and brushes over his bare hip with his tongue.]

Are you the day to my night, then?

[Light teases as he scoots back further to lie flat on his stomach between his boyfriend's legs. Draping one arm over Teru's thigh, Light runs his fingers up and down, never quite touching more sensitive spots.]

[ It's almost strange to let Light lay between his legs like this, even if he himself has been in this position countless times for his boyfriend. Now something about Light being so almost out of reach of his eager hands is off-feeling.

Teru doesn't get too much of a chance to dwell on it though, with one teasing action following the other. ]

Hh...

[ Light's technique is different than his own would be, much more hesitant, slower and softer. Teru likes having to be patient, it feels only fitting for them. ]

... even with your last name, I have a hard time seeing you as night.

Mm..

[Light contemplates this for a moment, mostly out of jest, and props himself up on his elbows to look at his boyfriend's face.]

You're too generous about giving awful jokes serious responses, you know?

[He shakes his head, though his lips are curved upwards in a tiny sheepish smile..]

I always thought this was kind of endearing about you. Even back then.

[And with that, he closes his hand over the tip of his boyfriend's arousal and brushes over it with his thumb.]

Mhm....

[ The direct touch has Teru closing his eyes and exhaling slowly to steady his breath for a reply. ]

How could I not take you seriously when you're my God...?

[ The answer is half joke in itself. Of course Teru has figured out a while down the line that being completely serious about Light's jest has a way of furthering the humorous effect for his boyfriend while not compromising his own personality. He's always found that pleasant. Unlike others, he can make Light laugh by being himself - laugh pleasantly, not maliciously. ]

[The idle stroking comes to a momentary halt as Light struggles to regroup from the comment. He refuses to call this being flustered because that's certainly not what it is - of course not - but the mixture of endearment and serious sincerity at this kind of timing when his face is mere centimeters away from his boyfriend's cock...

It's not the first time these disparate elements have come together like this to create this awful storm of adrenaline and sexual tension, and yet it somehow feels no differently than the first time. Perhaps because Light has never formulated a proper answer to this kind of comment.... perhaps because his boyfriend's concurrent "worship" had made it such that the only response Light could give had been inarticulate moans.

But there's no question about it; Light likes hearing appellations like 'god' from someone who truly matters, and for better or for worse, his face is shielded from Teru's vantage point and the pinch of color that has risen to his cheeks can go without scrutiny or comment.

It's our private bond. It's no wonder, he's never told Teru to stop.]

...ah, is that how it is?

[This isn't much more articulate either, damn it. Light swallows and moves his hand slowly up and down the length of Teru's arousal. Then he removes his hand entirely. The reason for that becomes clear as Light, head still ducked somewhat, puts his hands on Teru's hips and pulls at his boyfriend's pants more insistently to further undress him. The instruction to lift up to facilitate this goes unspoken.]

You've thought of me as God for a long while then. In retrospect I'm even more flattered.

[A joke.. maybe.]

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[ Somehow, Light doesn't seem as amused by this as Teru assumed he might be. There is always some part of Light that won't quite take his sincere convictions at eye level and will smile at it instead. Teru doesn't mind anymore, he's stopped minding long ago. For Light to react with notable sentimentality now.... it's unusual but it feels good. His feelings have reached Light.

Teru lifts his hips as prompted, a trivial movement that doesn't feel at all fitting to the thoughts in his head. ]

There's... nothing you need to be flattered about. It's all your own achievement.

[ He sits up a bit as his pants are off, so he can reach out for Light's face once more and stroke it gently. ]

You're amazing.

[Teru raises his hips and Light gently sits back on his knees to tug them all the way down his thighs and calves, until the article of clothing lies abandoned at the foot of his bed. Part of him feels incredibly overdressed at this point, especially considering it's usually his own clothes that are the first to go, but when he looks down at his boyfriend, Light can't resist a smirk in his private pleasure at the change.

Teru shifts though, and Light forgets all about avoiding directly looking at his boyfriend and remembers a split second after
they've locked eyes and his boyfriend's hand is already brushing his cheeks - now even warmer from hearing that sentiment stated so unabashedly.

It's not that he doesn't know these things about himself. Who else would word like "amazing" apply to, if not himself after all? But Light stares at Teru a little too long before managing to find his voice again.]

I could say the same about you.

[He shifts his weight forward, bringing their faces closer. He whispers into Teru's ear:]

We're perfect together.

[ Teru shivers. The idea of skipping a heartbeat is cliched, but Light has proven more often than not that there is truth to it.
His affirmative 'mhm' is barely audible, because in a way he doesn't want to break the spell these simple words of Light have put on him. He's always thought it, of course, that they have earned each other and happiness together.... but when the words come from Light, from God, then they're the ultimate affection and the ultimate validation.

Teru lowers his head to give a lingering kiss to Light's neck. His hands come to rest around Light's back once more, loosely and gently this time. ] ]

[Light breathes out slowly as he angles his head back to give Teru more space. It isn't fair that his skin seems to buzz where his boyfriend's lips are pressed, nor is it fair that his throat has gone dry all over again.

Technically this is all wrong. Technically, it's Teru who ought to be reacting right now and lying still, but for the moment Light is all too easily lulled into quietly enjoying this warmth pooling from his neck down to his spine. He ought to be chastising Teru for breaking their agreement. He ought to be pushing him back down on the bed again. He ought to be...]

...mnn...

[ Light is not discouraging him and that's all the encouragement Teru needs to intensify his kiss with broader lip movements and the occasional flicker of his tongue.

His hands meanwhile slip under Light's shirt, brushing gently over his abdomen. Teru knows what every muscle feels like and he enjoys the familiarity of tracing every part of the body he's touched so often and loves so much.

Before Light, he never thought of the physical as being attractive, but now every part of his boyfriend's physique has become associated with all of his inner values and Teru... ah, he can't help wanting it so much, wanting them to reaffirm their bond like this. It had served them in their time of pain and now that it's over, it's a luxury that's incredibly rewarding. ]

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[The heat around his neck intensifies and for all the good that it does, Light presses his legs together a little tighter to try and keep himself from becoming more aroused. Of course, doing so doesn't accomplish that and further betraying the point, as his boyfriend's tongue brushes his neck, Light shivers in a way that feels as though it ought to be tangible, like a fluttering ripple of tension going through his entire body.]

..ahh...

[This would have been deeply embarrassing even a mere six months ago. Before dating Teru, it would have been unfathomable to think he, of all people, could want someone to touch him the way Teru is touching him. He's never liked invasions into his personal space nor has he been interested in physical contact with other people as a general rule, so logically all of this right now ought to be repulsive.

But it fails to be that completely. It ought to be disconcerting that it isn't, but it fails to be that either. In the time they've spent together, enduring together, growing together, the need to filter himself from his boyfriend has faded into nothing. Light has never felt so comfortable or so right sharing everything he has of himself with another person.

And why shouldn't he? While he may not truly believe in cliches like soul mates or red strings of fate, there's a small part of him that's convinced that he will never feel about another person the way he feels about Teru. His heart rate has picked up, and entirely thoughtlessly his hands have moved up to his boyfriend's waist and shoulder as he presses their bodies closer. Teru is broader now, more secure feeling Light's arms than the scrawny boy he was in high school. The change suits him, Light muses dreamily, awash in the feeling of Teru's hands traveling over his torso.]

You're...mm... really keen on distracting me, huh...

[A comment made a little breathlessly, more faintly amused than anything else. Light reaches up to run his fingers through Teru's hair and sweeps it to one side before whispering in his ear again.]

You're incredible.

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[ Teru had not been thinking of it as distraction, it is merely that when he can feel the many small but notable ways in which Light is reacting favorably to his attention, he has a hard time stopping himself. Any noise Light lets out may be muted, but the significance is nevertheless not lost on Teru. Light loves what Teru is doing to him and this feels, somehow, like the result of hard work. All those times fumbling around, not knowing what they were doing, clinging to each other in pain... Teru had thought of sex as frivolous for a long time, but now he's reaping fruits of his emotional and physical labor. There may be some worth to that.

And even though he knows he's learned this well, the compliment still sends shivers down his spine. ]

.... ah.

[ He pauses in his movements for a moment, just savoring this feeling, then he grabs the hem of Light's shirt. ]

I still want to feel you more...

[ ...so take this off. ]

[The reprieve gives Light a moment to steady his breath and settle back more squarely on his knees. Slowly, he unwinds his arms from around his boyfriend and draws out the moment with a contemplative look that'might have been more convincing if thee wasn't a mischievous look in his eyes.]

Ah, but that wasn't really the point, was it? But...

[Glancing down at Teru's hands, Light brushes one affectionately with his thumb before pulling his shirt up over his head.]

If you insist.

[Dropping his shirt off haphazardly to the side, not really caring where it ends up, Light leans in to steal a chaste kiss.]

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