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I- aah-- I love you too.

[ Teru says, grasping Light's hand in return. And then he's also biting his lip, but discomfort is far from the reason. Having only his tip inside is horrible teasing, making his stomach twist in greedy anticipation for what's to come.

His hold on Light's hand grows tighter, but then he finds his presence of mine to brush his thumb over his boyfriend's skin almost comfortingly. It's horrible to feel this discrepancy between his own budding pleasure and Light's discomfort, but Teru knows it won't be long now until they can be united in this again. ]

[Light barely notices Teru's attempts to be soothing through the sickening feeling of gravity slowly sliding him down and stretching him out further. Swallowing hard, he shifts up a little, willing his legs to stop turning to jello. Light breathes in and out shakily several times, grip tightening on his boyfriend's hand.

It's going to be alright, he knows, and feeling just how hard Teru is inside him, how much Teru wants him, is enough to make Light grit his teeth and slowly, gently sink further down. As he does, he shakily moves the hand on Teru's arousal away and gives himself a few strokes to ease some of the tension winding in his body.]

[ It's only when Light himself makes move to do so that Teru realizes with shame there is something he can actively do for Light to make this easier.... of course there is. He had been selfish not to realize it.

Teru lets himself fall backwards slowly so he doesn't need his arms to prop him up anymore and his head is held up by the pillow instead, then he lifts the hand Light isn't grabbing and comes to meet Light's hand on Light's member with it.

Of course, there's some lube stuck there, but they'll just have to deal with that now.

Gently, he joins the stroking movement, wordlessly telling Light that he'll take care of it for him. Teru doesn't want to say it out loud when his breathing is going so heavily and he's sure he'll mess it up.

Light feels so good on top of him and he needs to... not focus on that now. Focus on Light instead. Serve him, pleasure him, worship him. ]

[As Teru's hand joins his, Light breathes out sharply, startled by just how much more sensitive he feels overall. Part of him wants to swat that hand away, feeling hyperaware that there's lube slathered on him from the front and the back but as their hands move in tandem, he shivers instead and digs his knees tighter into Teru's sides.]

Hnn... Teru....

[Releasing his boyfriend's hand, he places his open palm on the mattress for additional support. He ought to lt go of his own cock, but the ida of surrendering control of that sensation is a little unbearable for just now. Experimentally he slowly moves his hips up and back down just a pinch further, timing the movement closely with the motion of his hand.

Fuck is the only clear sentiment in his head as he moves, as pleasure shoots down his spine to numb his discomfort.
Stifling a noise in his throat, he repeats the movement up and down, each time taking a little more of his boyfriend in.]

[ Oh god......

The intensity of penetrating is something Teru has never gotten totally used to... It doesn't feel the same as the intensity of the other position, it's different, it's hard to keep a clear mind through when ahh--

Every bit deeper feels better and the tense anticipation he felt slowly melts into a constant stream of enjoyment. Deeper, deeper... yes....

Almost without his permission, his hips begin falling and raising ever so slightly to meet Light's rhythm from the his end. His eyes risk fluttering shut, but then he forces them to stay open because Light is so beautiful and he can't miss that. Can't miss how Light moves in sync with him, his muscles all moving accordingly, his face so entirely flushed, his lips saying his name.... ]

L-light.... you feel... so good....

[ Cliched words that are obvious without being stated, but he wants to leave not a single bit of doubt. ]

[The full cliche of that sentiment doesn't sink in like it should. In any othe context, it might have made Light raise an eyebrow, laugh a little incredulously - anything to indicate that he's fully aware that these lines belong in bad AVs or bad dramas.

But something about having his boyfriend buried inside him and moving his hips to push further inside of him to stretch more, to pressure --]

...a-ah.....

[....that spot is short circuiting the snark right out of him. For a few moments, he can't move. His hand slides off his own erection as he closes his eyes. While he's not new to this kind of intensity, the feeling that he's going to come without actually climaxing is overwhelming. His lips and his tongue move to say his boyfriend's name, but like a silent prayer no sound actually comes out as he sits all the way down on Teru's hips.

Light pauses in this position, shivering. He doesn't need to look down to know that his arousal is even slicker now with from additional fluid. Instead, he looks down at their bodies, now fully connected, misses a beat because it looks right and feels right, and raises his flushed face to look at his boyfriend with a smile.]

This feels good..... mm.... having a part of you....

[He places his free hand on Teru's stomach gently, spreading his fingers wide.]

I- I can't keep my hand from trembling though... that's ... haa... a little...

[He trails off, not knowing what the right word is and deciding that it's not important either.]

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[ By the time Light hits the base, Teru lets out a low groan, unable to formulate his feelings and sensations any more coherently than that. Then he pauses all movement for a moment, trying to catch his breath a little. ]

Any part of me... is part of you...

[ He smiles back a little and, also unsteadily, moves his hand on Light's erection again. ]

... you're my God after all...

[As Teru strokes him, Light closes his eyes and digs his fingers a little into Teru's skin as he makes a pleasured noise. Through the warm buzz of tingling spreading between his legs, he briefly wonders if any of this is actually god-like, but like a ripple shattering a reflection on water, the thought dissipates into a meaningless hum.]

Stop... you're going to make me...

[Brushing his boyfriend's hand, he tries to interlace their fingers instead.]

I want to enjoy this for a little longer.

[Leaning down Light places a gentle kiss on Teru's wrist and starts moving again, slowly up and down, speaking between deep breaths.]

So you're... aah.... retuning to me.. coming home, s-so to speak....

[ Now both of their hands are connected and even though that leaves Light's arousal shamefully neglected, the feeling of it is good and natural. They're holding each other every way they can now. Teru tightens his grip on both hands instinctively.

He can certainly use something to dig his fingers into as Light picks up movement again. Friction is.... friction is... He moans again, first trying to hold back on the noise and then just giving up on it. Let God know how much he appreciates him.... Yes, that's a nice way to put it when in reality holding back is also just too much effort. ]

.... nnh, you could... s-say that?

[ Even despite his generally dazed state of mind, a small bit of confusion flickers through. Then it disappears as arches his back to drive his hips up a little as Light comes back down. ]

... Light....

[There was an actual direction he'd been going in with that comment - a joke maybe? - but whatever the punchline was it evades Light like water dripping between his fingers. So much of how he feels at the moment, with his hands clasped tightly against Teru's and the continuous jolts of pleasure relentlessly traveling through his spine as he continues to move up and down, feels....
unreal. Dissonant. Like he's dissolving and spiraling, and every tiny little motion, every little sound and every little bit of pressure is almost too much to bear at once. Light closes his eyes and gives up on the idea of having coherent thoughts that have poignance.]

Hnnh, Teru....

[In the deepest recesses of his mind, he knows talking right now is not a good idea; he lacks the eloquence to say respectable things and yet-]

I- I want you... all of you... aah... everything you can give...

[ Everything. Everything, everything, everything... There is nothing Teru wants more than to obey this command and suddenly they don't feel at all connected enough. Their hands are wonderful together, yes, but there's more he wants to touch and he can't do it with them intertwining their fingers like this... ]

... everything. It belongs to you.... hhaa... every-- everything.

[ He pries their hands apart reluctantly so he can push himself up a little, bring his upper body closer to Light's as they move. Now he has access to touch him, to run his fingers over his chest, briefly - teasingly - over his cock and then around his back. Ah, now Light is so close... he can kiss him...

Doing so bends their upper bodies awkwardly, but Teru is beyond the point of noticing discomfort. There's only Light now and the aching of his own muscles can be an afterthought at some unspecified later point in time. Light is tight hotness, Light is warm lips, Light is perfect, is God... ]

God... G-god, Light, mmhhm, God...

[ He winds up whispering it against his lips, over and over because he can, because he feels it, because he's so indescribably happy. ]

[Almost hazily, like it belonged to a conversation from weeks ago rather than one that took place only moments before, Light remembers that this was supposed to be about spoiling Teru rather than being spoiled. Light remembers, but any shred of guilt that he would have felt about this is thoroughly washed away from mind as Teru touches him and presses their lips together. Being so close to his boyfriend, as close as two people can possibly get, feels so unabashedly perfect in every way, in spite of the awkward positioning. Though moving while they're like this now is more difficult, Light shivers bodily at the words spilling from Teru's lips, partly stunned that Teru knows so well what to say, partly overwhelmed by how his heart feels as though it's three sizes too big for him. Winding his arms around Teru's neck, Light kisses back insistently and greedily, moaning softly with each breath.]

Aah, Teru...

[Although every neuron in his brain feels as though it's buzzing with electricity and wonderful thoughts and feelings, actual words are hard to find. At a different time and context, Light would have been bothered that something so sweaty and intimate could make him so happy, but he doesn't care. In that moment, he loves every drop of sweat on Teru's skin, every drop of saliva on his lips from messy kisses, every centimeter of his boyfriend pressed inside him and....]

I love you so much...haa... being with you.... everything about you.... you're everything to me...

[Moving his hand, he brushes Teru's neck and traces a loop down his chest before leaning in for another kiss.]

We fit so perfectly together.

[ That's my text Teru thinks hazily, but he's far too breathless to articulate something so specific on the fly right now. It seems too good to be true that God would feel this way about him, it's more than even his wildest fantasies could have ever been. Everything.... of course, he shouldn't be everything, because there's a whole world to protect, but ah... he's the most righteous of them all, he's the one who's always been by Light's side, that's him, just him alone... ]

... w-we belong... aahn, belong... together.

[ One piece, God and follower united in their purpose, united in their feelings as humans and beyond.

Moving his hips himself is near impossible in this position, but he still wants to give more to Light so this time when his hand lands on is boyfriend's arousal, it stays, moving up and down relentlessly.

Teru's own eyes are closed tightly now, as he's moving back to kiss time and time again, clumsily. ]

[There'd been words on the tip of his tongue, but whatever they were the only sound that escapes his throat is a pleasured moan as Teru's hands go back to his cock. The friction is so quickly overwhelming that the resolve Light had to keep himself together for a little longer fades into a soft chorus of more... just a little more....

When his legs begin feeling weaker and weaker, Light digs his fingers into Teru's shoulders, half clinging,for support, half desperate to just touch his boyfriend a little more.The realization that he has to move, if only for Teru's sake, comes belatedly, but he feels determined to at least act on that thought instead of letting his boyfriend turn him into jello.

Swallowing and trying unsuccesfully to ignore how good he feels, Light begins to move again, small movements up and down, faster and faster, but god.... it's too much. Every fiber of his body feels as though it's coming apart and unraveling, spiraling out of reach, out of reality, and-]

Nngh!... Te-... Teru.......

[His voice is strained as he says Teru's name - almost like he's pleading for something only for the urgency to turn into a quiet satisfied mewl as Light closes his eyes and warm fluid drips down his thighs.]

[ Even though his own body feels like it's melting into a pool of pure ecstasy, what Teru notices the most is all the little ways Light tenses and loosens up, the noises he makes and breaths he takes.

Simultaneous climax is a romance cliche Teru is happy to have the chance to live through whenever it happens. When he's already combusting into sparks of pleasure, there is nothing that has an easier time sending him over the edge than Light's orgasm.

Knowing he's pleased Light, knowing how much they want each other... and then the extreme tightness around him, the hands clawing into his shoulders, the feeling of closeness...

He moans incoherently, not even the attempt of a word on his lips. When he's done, he doesn't open his eyes, only stays still, breathing erratically, prolonging the feeling of completion that he and Light can only achieve together. Not even the stickiness between their bodies can distract him now. ]

[Seconds seem to pass like minutes as wave after wave of bliss course through his arteries. Light wordlessly holds his boyfriend tight throughout, panting and somehow unable to string anything articulate together. Even through this intensity, there's something distinctly obscene about how he can hear and feel Teru's orgasm through his own body, and how that in turn makes Light himself feel so temporarily at peace with everything.

When the intensity subsides a little, Light immediately looks down at the warm fluid coating his stomach and legs just to quell some uneasy feeling about the quantity that came out of him. Of course, it's nothing at all like that and catching himself trapped in that train of thought gets him to laugh shakily without providing any explanations.

He feels unpleasantly sticky and overly lubricated. Both are objectively disgusting feelings. Moving just a little bit makes his boyfriend to slide out of him and that, too, makes him feel viscerally odd, but all the same the desire to be close doesn't really subside at all. Light wraps his arms around Teru and kisses him chastely.]

Mhmm...

[ By the time Light kisses him, Teru hasn't even opened his eyes yet, unwilling to let reality enter his bubble of good feelings. He hums happily against the kiss and when he breaks it, he finally raises his eyelids and smiles a little. It comes notably more naturally to him right now.

He doesn't say anything, just lowers himself backwards, pulling Light along, until his boyfriend is resting on top of him. They can't stay like this and sleep, there's cleanup to be done, but just another moment... until the post-orgasmic rush wears off and Teru inevitably can't take the stickiness anymore. ]

You're amazing in every way....

[ It's a tired mumble more than anything else. ]

[At first the movement makes him wince, but then Light is all too pleased about just lying on top of his boyfriend, bodies pressed close together. He closes his eyes and rests his head against Teru's chest while contentedly brushing his arm.]

It feels so good to be with you...

[Though murmured quietly, it's no less heartfelt. He breathes out languidly as he listens to Teru's heart beating. Already slowing down and becoming steadier, the sound slowly threatens to lull him into sleep. A minute or less might have passed like this with Light on the verge of dozing off, but eventually the part of him that's uncomfortable about being so dirty gets him to speak up again.]

...I want to stay like this, but we should clean up.

.... mhm.

[ A noise of hesitant agreement.

Teru dreads the separation of their bodies that will remove the pleasant warmth which currently distracts him so nicely from all the icky fluids spread over him. As soon as Light gets up, the gentle post-coital relaxation will be interrupted by awkward discomfort that can only be removed by a trip to the bathroom. It's too bad. Teru has grown to like sex quite a lot, but this never sits quite right with him.

He forces his eyes to open for real and his voice to sound less muttered. ]

We can't do that unless you move, sorry.

[Teru's pointing out something completely obvious, but hearing it still makes Light sigh. He raises his head off his boyfriend's chest.. and then proceeds not to make much progress in getting off as the prospect of stealing a quick kiss is more immediately appealing.]

To recharge.

[Light explains with a twinkle in his eye. And then he does very reluctantly sit up and snags some tissues from the bedside table to superficially wipe them clean so they don't track ejaculate all over the floor when they get up. When he's done with himself, he begins cleaning off Teru's stomach, talking softly all the while.]

... we've really been through a lot together, huh.

[ The clean-up is supremely awkward as a situation and Teru remembers that the first few times, he had to avoid all eye contact, no matter how fleeting during it. Back then not even the post-coital relaxation could truly ease him into this. That's long past now. He smiles a little and lets out a soft sigh. ]

It is hard to believe it's not been longer since we became close... It feels like I've been with you forever already.

[ He raises his hand to brush against Light's fringe and forehead gently. ]

Forever...?

[Light pauses a moment, then resumes wiping fluid off his boyfriend a beat later. Teru has an odd penchant for romantic exaggeration certainly, but it somehow manages to be more touching than eye roll worthy. His eyes naturally flutter shut as Teru touches his hair and forehead, briefly the perfect picture of contentedness.]

It does seem a little like that, I guess.

[He straightens up, scrunching up the tissues in his hand as he looks Teru in the eye again.]

Thank you for believing in me and staying by my side through the hard times.

You say that as if it weren't self-explanatory that I could never leave you.

[ If he were another person, he might have sounded amused while making this comment, but Teru is never flippant or humorous.

Now relatively clean, Teru pushes himself up as far as he can with Light still pinning him down with his hips. ]

There may have been in a time when we both weren't entirely sure of that, but that didn't make it less true.

[ Bound together not by fate but by their own effort, their good souls that would find each other everywhere and in any way. Surely, surely... even when he doubted, there's a reason he never took it a step too far. ]

[Light stares for a moment, a response already burning on the tip of his tongue.

But it wasn't self explanatory, Teru.

Long anxious nights spent wordlessly holding each other, wondering when something would become too much, steeling himself for the day Teru would say the dreaded words: I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore and having to force a smile and say that he understood through grit teeth.

Those days might feel like an eternity ago, and perhaps by now Teru's claim may have a ring of truth to it, but a part of him can't and won't accept anything about Teru as a given.

Light is still staring. And by now he's stared a little too long for any affirmative response to be remotely convincing. Instead, he wordlessly wraps his arms around his boyfriend and holds him tightly.]

[ It's the kind of answer he expected, but that won't stop Teru from repeating The Truth over and over. Nothing else can possibly be true about them and he wishes for Light to feel as secure in their relationship as Teru feels now.

He brushes his hands over Light's bare (and regrettably sweaty) back gently, returning the hug silently. Heartbeat against heartbeat, they are one creature now. Almost a single being in two bodies, now that Light has shared his divine force with him.

It would be nice to stay like this longer, but he's getting sleepier by the moment so he awkwardly pushes himself back a little. ]

I'll fall asleep here if we don't wash up fast...

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