inordertobelieve | clubs 2: and once more with feeling // closed to solsticeanew

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clubs 2: and once more with feeling // closed to solsticeanew

[ Teru has gotten used to club meetings running rather late. It's one of several reasons he has freed up his schedule on those days to make him flexible at least one evening of the week. It means he can afford to be less tense when people take a while to wrap up their conversations and leave. It means he can afford to take his time with packing his things until it's only him in the room... or maybe only him and one other. ]

What a lively evening, huh...

[ A mumbled remark, for the sole sake of feeling less awkward about silence among just the two of them. ]

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... I am as well.

[ Teru attempts a hesitant smile that is basically just a gentle lifting in the corners of his lips. Silence falls between them for a moment. Teru shifts his weight from one foot to another. ]

So... did you have any further plans?

[ Because standing around in the clubroom staring at each other in awe is a respectable activity in and off itself, only it's starting to feel a little awkward. ]

I...

[For all that Light prides himself on quick thinking, in the few seconds he has to work with to formulate an answer to make it appear as though he had thought this part of it out, one doesn't materialize.]

...it felt like bad luck to assume you'd agree and plan beyond that.

[He laughs.]

But I'm free tonight if you are?

... sorry for assuming.

[ Light's doubts about Teru's own intentions truly weren't just for show then. It humanizes him a lot for a person who had increasingly started to seem like a dream that has physically manifested in this world. Teru trails off again for a moment, his words fading into a murmur. This situation isn't rehearsed, it's something that makes his head swim with unnecessary fluffy feelings of anticipation and nervousness.

But he can't let go now. His head snaps back up to meet Light's eyes. ]

I am, too. It would be a shame to just part after we've only just established this.

[ And it would only delay this strange finding of a new pace until their next meeting. How could Teru afford to be distracted for so long? ]

[That makes Light smile, though the instant the feeling of "I'm going on a date with my boyfriend" crystalizes into thought, it's accompanied by self consciousness. He's not the kind of person to be excited about dates and romance - of course not, he's never been and won't start now... and yet here he is, nervous and excited and feeling rather like he's just been spun around in circles just one too many times.

A proper date where you're not second guessing where you stand all the time. A date where you don't have to make sure you're not laughing too hard or standing too close. With so much pressure taken off his shoulders, Light ducks his head slightly and clears his throat to hide the fact that he's still smiling.]

Mm. Is there somewhere specifc that you'd like to go or something specific that you'd like to do?

[ Light's badly concealed thrill at the prospect of going out is contagious. The knowledge that someone he likes finds the prospect of spending time with him exciting is making Teru's heart flutter in ways he's not used to. ]

I'd like to.... [ he doesn't actually know this, huh? Teru pauses a little, clearly deep in thought. ]

No, I don't know.

I'd like it if it weren't too crowded, but anywhere is fine. Even if it was just a walk around campus, I'd be happy right now.

[ And that is something he means very earnestly. Just being together with this security between them is a great treasure. ]

[The suggestion is so small and earnest that it makes Light pause. He'd been joking earlier about Mikami being "moe" but things like this make it seem less and less joke like by the moment. Light stares, not really knowing what to do with this sentiment, then very briefly brushes Mikami's cheek. It's a very thoroughly unnecessary gesture.]

You can dream bigger than that you know.

That seems daring.

[ Teru responds without hesitation despite the fact that his knees feel like they are getting increasingly weaker. ]

I've had bigger wishes, but they're already fulfilled now.

[ And those were the ones he already deemed wishes far too big and far too risky. ]

You said yourself that it feels unlucky to plan beyond some things.

[At that Light grins.]

But telling me about your sexual fantasy isn't "daring," huh?

--ah.

[ Teru's gaze immediately snaps to his shoes. Light's face has suddenly become a very risky area. ]

It was ... a very daring situation ... generally.

[Internally, Light laughs, but for the sake or preserving an atmosphere he holds back and gently tips Mikami's chin back up with his thumb.]

So be a little daring. I believe in you.

[ Instinctively, Teru looks back up at Light when he's touched, confused that he's being touched at all. Then he realizes that eye contact is the precise hell he was avoiding to start with so he deems it necessary to stare at some spot on the wall behind Light instead. ]

My idea of a date was studying together. If you really must know. I'm not exactly an imaginative person, so... I am very open to your own ideas.

I see.

[Light lets go, careful to try and keep his tone from faltering. This was a rather predictable answer, though.... again the simplicity of it has an odd, if slightly unpleasantly nostalgic, kind of charm to it.]

Well how do you feel about fish?

... I'm going to assume you don't mean to eat, right?

[ Because that'd be an odd way to introduce a restaurant visit, wouldn't it? Most people would ask about restaurants or dishes in that sense. ]

No, I meant more along the lines of looking at them.

[A sly little smile.]

But I suppose it's not too late to rent fishing rods and spend some time by the bay either.

Oh, looking is good. If I had to put a hook into a fish, I'd... well, it wouldn't turn out well.

[ Hastily added: ] Which is not meant as veiled encouragement to make me do exactly that.

[ Teru breathes out slowly, easing into this whole date discussion thing gradually. ] Meanwhile, I'd like to go to the aquarium with you, yes.

Squeamish?

[:ight raises an eyebrow and laughs. He, of course, does not acknowledge or address the fact that Mikami is 100% correct in assuming that Light is indeed amused by the image. But for the moment, he bites the inside of his cheek to keep himself from smiling too widely and turns away to go retrieve his book bag.]

Somehow I'd imagined you'd be stonefaced throughout.

[ Teru picks up his things as well, now eager to leave the club room behind and experience a walk in public that isn't inherently extremely awkward due to its destination. ]

I haven't made the attempt before, but I don't like the idea of having to touch fish, let alone kill them.

[Light shakes his head as he swings his bag onto his shoulder.]

You've never had to filet a fish?

[It's a mild question, one that Light poses as he stands and waits for Mikami by the door.]

It's not so bad, you know.

I have somehow managed to escape it, yes. It's not that I don't like fish dishes, I just think it'd be an unpleasant feeling against the hands.

[ Probably more manageable when you haven't pulled the fish out of the water yourself and felt is struggle earlier...

He follows Light to the door so they can step out, united. What a small yet notable joy. ]

[Light lingers at the door just long enough to briefly brush hands, partly in jest partly because he just wants]

Mm. You only touch the finest things. I understand.

I suppose so. Maybe I have high standards.

[ But in truth, he really just has an issue with specific textures and moistness on things generally. That sounds a lot less refined though. ]

[At that Light simply laughs and walks out the door and holds it open for Mikami to walk through.]

There's nothing wrong with that.

[A beat.]

I've never actually been fishing myself. The closest I've come to that is kingyo-sukui [A boyish laugh.] Obviously that doesn't count.

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