[ Teru has spent a long time convincing that it doesn't matter whether or not people praise him for doing the right thing, because God would always be satisfied and that's the only thing that matters. He's gone through life steeling himself to deal with dismissal and insult, to be proud of himself regardless of all of that. God approved. That was all he needed.
But God's approval had never been tangible words he could physically perceive. God's approval had been a frame of mind, a background certainty, not....
The out-loud admission of Teru's privileged position, of his blessing, his reward, is almost unbearable. The worth Teru always knew he had is being acknowledged, appreciated, elevated even further... It's the full validation of his entire being; past, present and future. In his lovers arms, he enjoys the confirmation that he's always been right and that the only person who matters knows as much. ]
I love you...
[ His hands aimlessly travel all over Light's back, just wanting to touch as much of God's skin as possible. ]
I'll never disappoint you...
[ Then he decides that 'downwards' is probably a good idea for a direction and slips his fingers slightly below Light's waistband. ]
I was made to serve you...
[ He brings one of his hands to the front, into the narrow room between them. The position doesn't give him much space, but he does manage to close his fingers around Light's penis and move ever-so-slightly. ]
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But God's approval had never been tangible words he could physically perceive. God's approval had been a frame of mind, a background certainty, not....
The out-loud admission of Teru's privileged position, of his blessing, his reward, is almost unbearable. The worth Teru always knew he had is being acknowledged, appreciated, elevated even further... It's the full validation of his entire being; past, present and future. In his lovers arms, he enjoys the confirmation that he's always been right and that the only person who matters knows as much. ]
I love you...
[ His hands aimlessly travel all over Light's back, just wanting to touch as much of God's skin as possible. ]
I'll never disappoint you...
[ Then he decides that 'downwards' is probably a good idea for a direction and slips his fingers slightly below Light's waistband. ]
I was made to serve you...
[ He brings one of his hands to the front, into the narrow room between them. The position doesn't give him much space, but he does manage to close his fingers around Light's penis and move ever-so-slightly. ]
Only you....